It is Sunday evening and I find myself in a state of depression. What brought about this state is unknown to me. Initially, I thought it was the dreaded feeling of Monday or the prospect of a new week and the challenges that come with it. I searched far and wide, desperately trying to pin point the source of this new feeling of self pity.
For weeks, I’ve found myself filled with feelings of anger and self pity and the recent drama at work just pushed this poison deeper in my system. It feels like I am loosing grip on who I am; on what I want and where I want to go.
Waking up in the mornings has started becoming problematic. My usual positive nature has slowly been fading away. Could I have resentments? Could I have given people power over my life? Could I have underestimated my potential?
It gets worse, not only have I been feeling sorry for myself, but have begun doubting my potential. I used to wake up feeling motivated to make a difference both at work and in society. I used to overcome setbacks and pick up myself each time I fell. My mind feels locked up- caged by steel and thick locks. What used to give me a reason to wake up and work hard, no longer gives me this feeling. What used to inspire me to become a better person feels like it’s gone. My mind has become a prisoner of negative thoughts. My thoughts are prisoners of my limitations; limitations I am placing on myself.
On this Sunday evening, I find myself lying on the couch trying to find my spark. I find myself begging to find something that will give me a reason to wake up tomorrow morning. In my desperate attempt, I page through the pages of the new Destiny Man issue and the first sentence on one of the articles is “Brilliant One, its 3am and I’m writing you a personal note to remind you that your brilliance has been repressed long enough.”
At this moment, I felt a new feeling surge through my system, so I read further. Simon T Bailey has a way with words that will reignite your spark and I quote, “There’ll never be a better time than right now for you to become the person you’ve dreamed of becoming”. I read this article to the finish and read it another 3 times.
He reminded me that when we are worried our brains get stuck in survival mode and doesn’t invest in new thinking,. It is when we start growing our brains , that we start living. He further says that when we start living, we begin to believe.
I am aware that it takes a while to get back to my positive self, but I can start developing new and innovative ideas that will inspire me. I am prepared to get up tomorrow morning with a hunger to become the person I’ve always dreamt of becoming. I have a choice to leave my mind a prisoner of me imposed limitations; to get influenced by the bitterness of some of my colleagues or I can decide to become the person I want to be every day.
Simon Bailey concludes his article with a quote from James Allen’s book, “whatever your present environment may be, you will fall, remain, or rise with your thoughts, your vision, and your ideal. “
As Monday approaches, I challenge myself to be the kind of business man, I’ve always wanted to be and I challenge you to do the same.
